Monday, February 28, 2005


I am looking into a new car. Yes I know I bought on in 2004 but I am finding that it's to small. I currently drive a Nissan Sentra and am looking into an Altima. Basically because they're bigger, but not to big. Any suggestions?

Friday, February 25, 2005


My new favorite show is CSI. Not Miami or NY. Just CSI. Don't know why, not a real big fan of all the Crime Law and Punishment shows. Hate Law and Order (sorry to all those L&O fans).
CSI just holds my attention more. All those nasty shots of the guys guts. Entertainment in the purest sense. Well ok maybe not pure, but it sure beats the glossy shows (i.e. Newlyweds, vH1 Goes Inside______, anything on E!) that fill up my sick days and some lonely Saturdays.
I guess it could be worse. I could love soap operas. I've overheard conversations at the grocery store that went along the lines of "Ohmigod, did you know Damien was cheating on Mary-Margaret-Sue? With Mary-Margaret-Sue's TWIN SISTER Sue-Margaret-Mary?!?! And then the priest found out and someone shot him?! OHMIGOD!!". In today's world it's sad that I actually have to listen a bit closer to find the words "tomorrows show" to make sure that they are talking about a soap and not what happened on the 7 o'clock news.
I have tendencies to watch the news, crap on the Discovery Channel about why the Twin Towers fell (*that would be a plane hitting it), glossies (see above) and now CSI.
I think I may need more of a social life. Truth is most of my friends are settling down with that whole marriage/kids thing and because I have no real desire to do that yet, I'm home a lot.
Oh well. In due time.
*Please don't take offense to my 9/11 remark. Honestly I was there in NYC that week and it was the worst thing I have ever seen. I do not mean to offend anyone. I just don't understand why the media has to analyze everything about it. Yes it was built to withstand 75 mile winds, a light plane touching it, but seriously, that's not what happened. I don't need to see the entire thing every 3 months. I guess I should just stop watching it.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Dollar Days

I am going on a budget. Not a big one I don't spend a ton of cash anyway. I'm going to do small things. Like my $18.00 a week coffee money will probably go down to $10.00. I'll have to substitute my latte's for house blend but that's ok. My main goal: To have and average balance in my checking account bigger than $72.66. Truth is I don't make a ton of money at my job, I pay rent, I pay my bills and have everything I need. I went to Europe twice in my life, have no credit cards with a balance, and managed to save up to buy a new car in 2004. However I just cleaned out all my old bank statements and my average balance for the past 4 years was $72.66. I think it would just give me peace of mind (which I hear is priceless anyway).
I am sure I can do it I'm not into spending money on a handbag collection. I think I have lost friends that way. Sharon will ask me if I want to go shopping and I always say "nah". Don't get me wrong I've dropped some cash on things I shouldn't have (looking in my closet I can see the Manolo Blanik heels, the $150.00 pair of jeans I've worn five times, and the cashmere scarf for example), but I hate going into crowded places and waiting to use the dressing room, then waiting in line....I guess you could say that I'm impatient. I just wonder how some people can go spend $500.00 in 15 minutes. Is is therapy? Does it make them feel better about themselves or make them forget their shitty day at work? Do they figure it's a credit card and they don't have to pay for it right away (stupid stupid people)? Or is it something more complicated? Something no one even knows about like a gene or something. Girls seem to have the label of being big spender (most of my girl-friends are). I wonder if there is something in us that makes us want things. Expensive shiny things. I once worked with a girl that said no to a proposal claiming the ring was "not good reflection of what our life together would be". I still don't know what that means. Uh, hello your a bank teller! She was a bitch anyway.
Well for whatever reasons we all have, we like to spend money on things we don't need. So I have decided to go on this budget not for something or someplace. I'm going on a budget because I feel like it. Put that in your $83.00 pipe and smoke it.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

It's Cowd Outside

I remember an Old Navy commercial a while back and the "hip-hop" singer lady said "it's cowd outside". Well, it's cold outside. I live in a cold area to. The angry man at the Angry Man Clearing House blog made a good point of stalkers and stuff, so I won't say what town I live in but it's near Chicago and it gets chilly.
I don't dress properly either. I wear raincoats in 28 degree weather. I'm famous for not owning hats. I have no winter boots. I think I need to move to California or Hawaii or something. Somewhere nice and toasty that serves drinks 24 hours and you can smoke cigarettes inside.
My dream world.
I hate that people are cracking down on smoking inside. Well let me rephrase that. I'm upset that people are cracking down on smoking inside because I am what they call a casual smoker.
Translation: Will get cancer in 15 years instead of 8. I'm sure it bothers other people and they have ever right to piss and moan about my lousy cigarette. I wonder if all the smokers got together and fought for it, would they allow our butts back inside? Personally most of the smokers I've met are to lazy (I'm an occasionally lazy person) to do such things.
It's definitely to cold to have a cigarette now.
I think I'll turn up the heat to 78 and have a beer or something.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

I have a boo-boo.

Yes, a boo-boo. I got some fillings Monday and I bit my upper lip. Hard. Right on the inside. Now I have this big, nasty, pussy white blister on the inside of my lip. Luckily you can't see it. But I can taste, feel and play with it. It's gross. I don't think I can really do anything about it. I doesn't really hurt. It just sucks.
I hate going to the dentist. I hate driving there and waiting. Once I get in the chair it'd not that bad. Better than having a root canal or something. Then you have to pay them all kinds of money I don't have. I got denatal insurance recently and that helps. They still kill you on it.

Monday, February 14, 2005


I know why everything closes early on Sunday. What I don't know is why it's still going on. I mean no disrespect to anyone religious, but this whole not being open on Sunday thing is losing it's charm.
When I was smaller the mall closed at 4. Now it's 7. My parents remember a time when nothing was open. A buddy of mine lives in Massachusetts and says you can buy liquor on Sundays over there now and it was a fuss on the news. By the time my 11 year old niece is my age it won't matter. So why bother? There are people who work every day all day. Sunday Monday Friday.
Doesn't make a difference to them. I'm sure the Mon-Fri 9-5 people wouldn't care. My old bank is even open on Sundays.
I think everyone should just cut to the chase and leave everything open 24 hours a day.
Malls, banks, and for all those religious people, church. Why not?
Ok the whole point of this thing is that I really wanted Starbucks but they close at 9 on Sundays. Selfish? Yes. Important? Yes (hey coffee is important!).

Sunday, February 13, 2005


I need to have sex. Hot, dirty, nasty sex. I know I sound cheap, but every now and then you need good sex. A relationship of mine ended recently due to the fact that we just weren't interested in each other anymore. We have "nice" sex. The no surprise, same ol' same ol' sex.
I'm not a "nice" sex kind of girl. So now I'm getting antsy. Not antsy enough to jump the next guy I see, but things are definitely starting to boil over.
So now I need to find someone who will be willing to have sex with me and not hold it against me (as a friend, acquaintance or otherwise) that I put out on the first date. I don't think that's cheap. Really I don't. I know I probably should think it's cheap to put out on a first date, but I really think that after oh-so-many partners (in my case 11 1/2 in 12 years) the "importance" of it all seems to fade. I have all the respect in the world for those people who are saving themselves (what are they called virgins?)....I'm just not one of them.
*sigh* Anyone know of a good vibrator??

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Fuzzy Bears and Hearts.

I don't like Valentine's Day. I have no reason for this. I have had "fantastic" Valentine's Days.
Movie worthy. Yet it did nothing for me. I've had flowers, candy, stuffed bears that look constipated, songs written for me...yet it meant nothing (ok the song was cool until I found the guy "writing for" someone else). Well it's not that it meant nothing, it's just not the greatest holiday ever for me. You go out and spend gobs of cash for someone who you shouldn't, if you really loved them, have to prove anything to. You go to eat at some fancy-shmancy restaurant when last night you ate KCF in your underwear. It's not that I'm not into the whole romance love thing. I think it's great. I'm just not a Valentine's Day girl. Last year I decided that I would no longer celebrate Valentine's Day. After telling this to the guy I had been seeing only 3-4 weeks, I was promptly broken up with. He said that he was looking for a girl who believed in love. Well it really didn't matter, we're friends today. It did get me thinking. Just because I don't enjoy Valentine's I not believe in love?? Sounds kinda screwy to me. He said that was the truth and I do have to believe him (mostly because he didn't date much til my friend Sharon "the Ultimate Romantic"). Don't get me wrong. I could do without constipate bears in my life but I like flowers and going out...just not all in one day.
Anyone else not like Valentine's Day for no good reason?

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Life styles of the rich and greedy.

Ok...who watched those glossy shows on E!, vH1 and MTV? You know, the REALITY TV SHOWS. C'mon fess up!! You know you watch them. It's not like we sit in front of the TV and think "Wow. I love this show". It's more the appeal of it. You can watch celebrities go camping, get in fights with their partners, tour, eat pasta out of the can..ANYTHING. And you can do this without guilt because they air in "ME TIME" (the time of day that is completely devoted to you whether you like it or not...4am...12am...7pm). The time when no one will want to change the channel or ask what this crap is. Sure they also run in prime time and there are 110,000 people between the ages of 15-21 watching it then, but all of us who watch them in ME TIME must add up to at least a couple million. So what's the appeal??? For me it's simple to get lost in the moment. I had a fight with my sister today...but it doesn't matter right now...Newlyweds is on.
I guess I think of it as cheap therapy (both financially and mentally).
What ends up pissing me off is that all these people have underlying responsibilities. Kids, dogs, careers and they all can find/pay someone to take over these things while they go to Venice for the weekend. I wonder if their all that shallow. I wonder how much is to much with us not them.
How much can we know about one person, who we don't actually know, before it can be considered obsessive? How many magazines can we read, TV shows watched and movies seen just because they're in them? Oh well I can't beat myself up to much. They make these shows right? Hence the greedy part. In my opinion, my home is kept to myself and my friends. Not to TV cameras and microphones shoved up my ass. So what's your favorite guilty pleasure show??


I don't think I like sports anymore. Actually I don't know if I ever liked sports. When someone would ask me "do you like sports?", the nerd I am, I always though to myself "yeah tennis is cool". I don't like main stream sports. No football, baseball basketball appearing on my TiVo.
You also would NEVER...EVER....EVER catch me playing a sport. I guess it's just not in my genetic make up. I guess that's why this Super Bowl Sunday thing remains a mystery. Every news show is bitching about how censorship is going to play a big role in this years game. I just don't understand why they can't delay the broadcast by 5 seconds. I have been told by many friends they don't do that for three reasons: 1. Betting on the game, 2. Sports fans are very sensitive about their games and 3. Because that would be "wrong". Saturday Night Live is delayed by 15 seconds. The Tonight Show LIVE with Jay Leno is filmed at 3pm. I don't know I just don't get it...but like I said...not a sports fan.

Friday, February 04, 2005

One cream. One sugar.

I LOVE coffee. LOOOOOOVE. I love coffee at night in the morning and in the afternoon.
I don't know if it's the sugar the cream of the straight jolt of caffeine. I like my coffee with one sugar and one cream. Nothing super-gross. I think the you can tell alot about a person by the way they take their coffee. Those french vanilla extra extra cream and 7 sugars teeny-boppers probably don't even know what coffee taste like. The black coffee drinkers either are very intense worldly folk...or pretend to be. Then there are the one cream one sugar people. Not unexperienced in the world of coffee, yet not quite ready to take on the black french roast. Of course I could always be wrong.
I love coffee.


I have been wondering lately why some friends disappear? Why when you change a boyfriend, get a new job, have a kid, whatever...why do some go away?
Do they just loose contact?
Do they have bad feelings?
Do they feel as if we now have nothing in common?
Or is it me?
It can't be all me. What about the loyals. The friends who are there forever. Through all things good and all things bad. The friends that hang around even when you don't want them there.
My good friend is a serial friendship maker, and leaver. She seems to have four or five friends for life and then the rest are friends of whoever she is dating. She's even avoided a breakup just because she would miss his friends. Like all things in life she could only avoid it for so long before he caught on. And then what happens to the friends? Is it strange to keep being friends with an ex's friends? They should have prenups for boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. "I get Susie and you can have Jim".
Ah the ties that bind. I suppose we can all have the people we love, the people we hate and the people we love-hate (the crazy inlaws, the friend from work, your best friend in high school who you have nada in common with anymore).
What the hell..... :)


I hate bills. Who doesn't hate bills????
It's a crime how much they charge you on stuff that you need to live a decent life!
Water. Heat. I could possibly do without electricity but I like my showers and I like them warm damnit.

Thursday, February 03, 2005


If anyone out there is learning how to cook. Please help me.